If you are anything like me, you will probably admit to yourself that you like to SEE God at work. Who doesnt!
I feel so reassured, so loved, so reaffirmed in my faith… when I can see God working. It is those times when we cant see God working, that I was referring to in todays devotion.
I received a comment this morning from a sweet reader of our Proverbs 31 daily devotions, who gently reminded me of an important fact, that I wanted to share today.
Although doubt is something that can separate us from Christ at times, and make us wonder if He really is watching over us, doubt is also a “vehicle to stronger faith”, as she put it.
She also stated that doubt is not something we have to run from or feel guilty about, but something to look squarely in the face and pray to God about it. Amen sister!
Lets face it, doubt is simply a part of being a Christian, regardless of how strong our faith is. Why? Because we cant always see God at work, the way we want to see Him at work. He may not be answering our prayers the way we want, so we wonder if he really heard them. He may not be protecting us from harm or illness, so we wonder if He really cares. He may not be pulling us out of the pit we got ourselves into, so we wonder if He really sees us.
My hearts intention for todays P31 devotion, was to express that doubt is a human emotion that we all feel, and there is no way to avoid it. But most importantly, that our faith gets stronger once we push through that doubt, and trust in God at all costs, even when we cant “see” divine intervention at the moment.
Its okay to admit we are doubting Gods sovereignty when things are not going our way, but understanding that we can overcome that doubt through a total dependence on God is what will lead us closer to Him.
In the meantime, dont give up on yourself or your faith because you feel like you are standing at the edge of the doubting cliff and ready to fall off! And dont beat yourself up emotionally because it seems like other people never seem to doubt what God is doing, and you are always wondering if He really has things under control or not. Those feelings are a simply a reminder of why we have to believe to see, and not the other one around.
There are always two powerful voices going on in our hearts and minds – One is God, and the other is enemy. The enemy would love to convince us that we are a poor excuse for a Christian, and that our doubts make us unworthy to be loved by God.
But praise God! We have the power to overcome that doubt – through believing in our Savior. We can simply admit our doubts, recognize that possiblty it is the enemy engaging us in a game of self condemnation, and ask God to draw us closer to Him during this time of confusion and disappointment, and be ready for God to pour His mercy and grace and love into our hearts. Even if we have to do this everyday for a while until our worries subside, God is always walking right with us through that journey. He has promised to never leave us or forsake us.
The other possibility is that maybe God is allowing certain things to happen in our lives to test your faith, to cause us to doubt, in order to push us into a place of full dependence on Him. Hmmmm. Just something to think about.
Do you have a personal experience or suggestion about dealing with doubt in your relationship with Christ, that might encourage the rest of us? Please consider sharing it with us!
Have a blessed week!