The aching in my heart for my daughter is finally starting to decrease.
A few weeks ago, she worked hard all week at team tryouts, with every intention and expectation of making the team, and because of one small mistake, she was cut from the team.
I am not sure who was more devastated – her, or me. For all you moms out there, I know you can relate. The heartache that I felt for her was so overwhelming that I could hardly breathe. Every ounce of my being wanted to change the situation, control the outcome, make it all better… but I was powerless to do so. All I could do, was cry with her, support her, and assure her that it would be all right, somehow.
We talked about how God always knows best, even when we dont understand it, and that God must have a wonderful plan for her this year, that we dont know about yet. But still, the aching of the hearts remained.
One morning as I was jogging outside, enjoying the fresh air and the warm sunshine, I had me a frank little talk about this situation with God. As I prayed about this disappointment my daughter was struggling with, I asked Him for understanding, wisdom, the ability to forgive, and for guidance. But most importantly, I asked Him for peace about this situation in my heart, and for peace for my daughter.
One word was instantly impressed upon my heart – PROTECTION.
I immediately felt as if God spoke to my spirit, confiding in me that He was protecting her from something, and upon grasping that concept, I began to feel a peace wash over me.
God had not forgotten my baby girl. He had not overlooked her desires or dreams. But He knew best, and I chose to believe that. I began to consider all the things that He could be protecting her from, but my mind went a little haywire, which frequently happens when I let my mama-bird protective instincts mentality begin to outweigh sane rationale.
So I cleared my mind, and rested on the fact that even though I had no idea what she was being protecting from, that God was in deed protecting her, from something. Even though things didnt go as we had planned, God had a plan in place.
A few days later, I asked my sweet P31 friends to pray for my daughter and for her to find a new path that she would love just as much. I received many wonderful prayer-packed emails, but one in particular spoke to my heart. This friend said: “I pray that she will understand deep in her heart that any rejection God allows in our lives is for our protection…”
Immediately upon reading that, I knew that I heard God correctly a few days earlier. In some way we do not yet understand, God is protecting my daughter.
So regardless of whether we like the situation or not, we have chosen to trust in Gods plan, and believe that He is protecting her in some way. What a wonderful reassurance of not only His protection, but of how much He loves us and our children.
Here are some wonderful verses to remind us about Gods love and protection:
2 Thessalonians 3:3 But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen and protect you from the evil one.
Psalm 56:9 Then my enemies will turn back when I call for help. By this I will know that God is for me.
Psalm 91:4 He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
Psalm 91:14 “Because he loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
Psalm 121:7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—he will watch over your life.
I believe in Gods protection, and praise Him for reminding me of it. And I am looking forward to the day when I can write about the wonderful things God is doing in my daughters life this year, that we would have never expected. She has already embarked on something new that she is excited about, and believes that when God closes one door, He opens another. I am excited to see what He has in store for her this year. But I know, that it is His protection that makes it all possible.