What did God say, you ask? He simply said, “Tracie, Go… and share your story”. Did I say, “sure God! When can I start?!” Nope. I quickly and adamantly said “No God. Forget It”. In fact I got into a bit of an argument with God in my head, assuring Him that I could understand His mistake of thinking that I would actually share anything spiritual or private with anyone, much less my most private experiences in life. But of course, God does not make mistakes, and did not make a mistake here. He simply knew my future before I did.
That was about eight years ago, and every year about this time, I am reminded of that day, and the miraculous things He has done in my life since then. A few years after hearing God’s voice, in June 2005, I finally took a little step of faith, and attended the Proverbs 31 Annual She Speaks Conference, which is an amazing three day conference that equips women to speak and write for God’s kingdom. I had no idea why I was there or what God had planned for me, but it turned out to be a life changing, heart altering, experience. As a result, every June, I am reminded of this memorable day – the day when I truly knew it was well with my soul.
For years I had hidden deep hurts down in my heart, and had allowed the enemy to keep me in a constant state of belief that God could never forgive me or love me. But after spending 48 hours in the midst of God’s presence at She Speaks, all that changed. After a powerful worship session, I walked up to a big wooden cross, with tears pouring down my face, and nailed a little notecard to that cross with a hammer.
On that notecard I had written the key to my self-condemnation; the sin that I had committed; the burden I had carried around my neck for years; the reason I believed that God could not love me. I covered it with my hand, so no one behind me could read my secret. But when I secured it to the cross, and heard the pounding sound of the hammer into the wood, I immediately felt like I was in the presence of angels…..and a miracle occurred – the pain and the shame instantly left my heart.
I had kneeled at the foot of that cross as a broken woman, but stood up with a new perspective about who God was, and who I was in His eyes. For the first time in many years, the pain was gone, the shame was gone, and the shackles crashed to the floor. I turned and walked away a new person – a cleansed and forgiven person – with a renewed internal presence of the Holy Spirit in my heart. I accepted God’s forgiveness with all my heart, and for the first time ever, I was able to forgive myself. Suddenly a peace washed over my soul that I will never forget. I left my burdens on that cross, and walked away in freedom.
In that fragile moment of redemption, I heard God’s voice again. He gently said, “it is now well with your soul”. My heart skipped a beat, and I felt short of breath for a second. God had spoken once again, and I had felt His words in my heart.
The Monday after that conference, I resigned from my corporate position, and began a new life with a new boss – God himself. Since then, God has done unbelievable things … things which I would have never dreamed of, much less believed were possible. For I’m just little ‘ol me, but I know now, that my God is a big and powerful God.
If you are registered for this year’s She Speaks Conference, I can’t wait to meet you! The P31 speaker team is praying for God to open your heart and make His path known to you. He has called you for a purpose, and you are in for a great awakening of clarity and spiritual renewal. If you are not registered, consider attending next year!
But either way, I know God has done something amazing in your life that will encourage others. So…….Do you have a miracle to share? Have you ever had that ah-hah moment, when you suddenly knew that all was well with your soul? Have you ever heard God’s voice so clearly about something, that you could not deny it was Him?
As a little motivator, post your brief story on my blog, and you will be entered into a drawing to win a free signed copy of my book, Reinventing Your Rainbow (please be sure not to comment as “anonymous” if you would like to be entered into the drawing).
If you prefer to go ahead and purchase a copy of the book, and read my whole story of how I discovered God’s will, and be reassured that He can use all things to His glory, click below to be directed to the Proverbs 31 shopping website.